July 2, 2013

So my mind has been provoked by a topic list that I was reading through tonight. The question was: If you are an only child, how would life be different if you had siblings? Or vice-versa. This makes me happy and sad all in one. I fall in both categories. I know, you're asking, how is that possible? Well you see, I have 3 brothers - all older, but all are deceased. They passed away in a fire in 1976, when I was 9 months old. So that is how I am an "only child" or at least raised as one. I was so young when they passed away. There really aren't any stories that I personally am able to recall of them; but I love hearing the stories my mom tells me. I think life would have been extremely different on so many levels had the boys still been here. I dream about being spoiled rotten by all three; after all, how wouldn't I be being the only girl! Recalling the stories mom tells me about them treating me like a little baby doll. Oh, I am sure there would have been fights and challenges - but I would give anything to have those fights. Could you imagine how different dating might be? Would I have ever got out of the house without 3 bodyguards being in the car with me? It may have changed the way my life turned out though regarding my romantic life! I picture myself being extremely close to them. I think Dale, who would be 8 years older than me, and I might not have been quite as close just because of age difference but I see a strong relationship there as we gained in years. Rodney, he would have been my protector. He would be 6 years older. Still a little age difference but close enough that I think he would have made sure no one got within hands reach of me! LOL  Then there is Chris, with an age gap of 3 years. No doubt we would have been the 2 to have the most battles, but I think resulting in a friendship that could never be broken! Yes, I sit here heart-broken right now - why does life work the way it does? Why is it that they were taken from our family way too soon? I know they have watched over me every single day and I know there will be a day that we meet in Heaven but oh how I wished that we had time on earth together as well. I love you big brothers - you baby sis.