I believe I took too many credit hours this summer. I loaded myself with 9 credit hours. This is my first semester of college and I am taking 2 online courses and 1 hybrid course. I originally was only going to take 2 classes, with 6 credit hours but with the way financial aide works I decided to add the extra course. I should have listened to everyone that warned me how heavy a load this would be. I guess I thought I could be super woman. I didn't give full thought to having 4 children, a husband, and a house to take care of. I also didn't take into consideration that I spend atleast 1 day a week at my grandfather's house in Ash Grove helping with his financial and administrative matters. It seems as though everyone else needs my time and i don't have anytime to focus on what I need. Like studying as much as I would like and especially not at one or two in the morning. I have learned that getting 3 or 4 hours of sleep wears on me. I just got my blood work back from my yearly exam and my B12 is extremely low. Now I get to go through a series of shots for the next year to try and get the levels back up. I asked her what caused this level to be low and she says fatigue! You think I could possibly be suffering from fatigue? How? I can do it all, right? Appearantly not since I have 2 loads of laundry sitting on the couch next to me and a list a mile long of what I need to get done tomorrow. Will I be able to have enough time to study for my Anatomy and Physiology class? Will I ever even "get" that class? I have to succeed with my courses to be able to fulfill my dreams of being a nurse. But am I trying to do too much at once? I am extremely hot right now and the baby is crying. At 1am! Lord help me... I need longer days and need the time to go much slower than what it currently does. I am not sure what to type right now. I feel like my mind is trying to go off course. I need to get back to reflecting on the fact that I believe I took too many credit hours this summer. I debate whether I should drop a class. But this makes me feel like a failure inside. I keep telling myself I have made it through 3 weeks - only 5 more to go. Will I make it? Will I pass? I don't know, I honestly don't know. Has it been 10 minutes yet? I feel like I need to crank the air conditioner down. I am burning up. I guess I will keep typing and thinking. Maybe I can do this. After all, how are my children supposed to learn what hard work can do for you if I don't stick with it. I am going to make it through this - dead or alive. I have finally hit ten minutes!
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You sound like a very busy woman! Just think the summer semester is just about over! When you finish school your friends and family will be so proud and you will be so proud of yourself! You can do it stick with it! The hardest things you have to work for pay off in the end!!:)
ReplyDeleteYou'll get through it and you'll consider this a learning experience. The lesson of what you are capable of handling will be much more valuable than anything you will learn from those nine credit hours.
ReplyDeleteWow, 9 credit hours is a ton to do. I will be praying for you. I am drowning with my 7. I have a hybrid anatomy & physiology class with a lab and with work and my kids and husband. Geeesh. This is just a season. This semester will be over in 5 weeks. You can do it. Regardless if you drop a class or whatever, you are not a failure. Psalm 40:1-3. I waited patiently for the Lord; And He inclined to me, and heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, Out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my steps. He has put a new song in my mouth— Praise to our God; Many will see it and fear, and will trust in the Lord. When you fall and get in an icky situation, trust God... he will pull you out! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much ladies! You are all a great encouragement and I will say that is the one thing I have been VERY blessed with is great peers in my classes. I have AT LEAST 1 in each course that keep me going. Thanks Lauren P for the scripture - I needed that!
ReplyDeleteI have felt the same way since this semester started. This is my first semester of college in my life. I thought I would start it off easy with just 6 credits in a summer semester. WRONG! I too seem to have not enough time in the day. I work full time have a side business I own and school. I also keep thinking only 5 more weeks. I know we can do this. I am going into the medical field too. I hope your path will bless you and your family. Your hard work will pay off.
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DeleteIt's great to hear that I am not the only one that feels like I was a little to zealous with starting college for the same time! At 37, I am learning that I am not near as young as I used to be and working on homework every night til 2 in the morning and starting at 6 again is more than this body can handle. BUT as you said - only 5 weeks to go and we WILL make it through this! Best wishes in your endeavors; you will have great success and be rewarded abundantly in the end.
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ReplyDeleteI felt like I was reading a page from my own life there for a minute. I too am taking 9 credit hours and I also have an A&P class that is just so confusing!! I'm pretty sure you sit at the table next to me!! We can do this! Somehow, someway, things will work out the way they are supposed to! I loved the scripture that Lauren gave you, that helped me as well! So thanks Lauren.
ReplyDeleteWe are halfway through this semester and we can do this!!
Amber :)
Amber,
DeleteI think this is amazing how we are running the same credit hours and 2 out of 3 of our classes are the exact same.
We will make it through this and be able to look back and laugh one day at how crazy we were for doing it :)
Tammy
Oh wow, 9 credit hours in 8 weeks. Yes, that is hard. I am taking 7 credit hours and it is about to wear me down. I really need a break from it all, but I don't want to stop now. After these classes this summer, I will only have about 4 classes left to take and I have decided to only take 1 class this fall. This pace is so hard, taking only one class will seem like a breeze.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you have almost finished the "race" - congrats! I understand your feelings of being "wore down". As I set here tonight, after my A&P class and the unit 2 test - I feel that way. It makes me wonder if I should just walk away from it all. I keep telling myself I am halfway done - but can I hold out 4 more weeks?
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