Frustration Overload!

So you will have to bear with me tonight! I am not one who typically spends a lot of time complaining or being negative; I just don't feel like it is productive in most cases; but tonight might be a little different for me. It has been a day full of frustration. I had my unit 2 test in Anatomy & Physiology tonight; and although I have spent all day studying - I don't think the results are going to be good. It makes me wonder if I should go ahead and drop the class. I need this specific course for my degree but if I don't carry an A or B in it, it won't matter because the nursing program is so tight. I guess the next day or 2 will tell how I really did. It's going to be really hard to wait.  Then I feel like, because of all of the studying I am having to do for that class, it is making it hard to get my other two course assignments completed. I am far from getting sleep, going to bed at 2 every morning and starting again by 6. I feel myself burning out fast. Then you add people that continual complain. Wait, how ironic, that's exactly what I am doing! I am making a decision to reverse this conversation into constructive writing. We got a new puppy yesterday - his name is Oreo! He is a Yorkie/Bichon mix and he is so darn cute. My husband doesn't fully agree with me and tonight made that situation a little more frustrating. Oreo has done really well for me going outside and not tearing up things in the house. While I was at class tonight though, he had 2 accidents in the house and was chewing on the back of the couch. Needless to say, my husband is not happy with the dog! He has become my homework buddy though, he just sits at my feet with his toy or up on the couch next to me. I am getting so tired and not really sure where I should be going with this whole journal project. Honestly, the whole lesson 4 is confusing me! (Other than the reading assignments.) Probably the lack of sleep is not making things any easier to comprehend. I just have to remember to take it one step at a time and I will get through it. I am really hungry right now - or am I? Maybe I just want something to comfort my frustrations and fatigue. I don't even feel like I am being a good mom right now. With everything I am having to try to get done with school - I feel like I am spread as thin as a sheet of tissue paper. Much more weight and I am liable to just completely disintegrate. God is on my  side and i will get through this - I just have to remember, He is my strength even  when I can't be. My weekends are being completely taken over by family - and that would normally be the best thing ever! I love family reunions and spending time with those that I don't get to see often but right now it is just too much. I don't feel like I can say "no" because they are all pertaining to my grandfather in some way or another. See, he lost my grandmother on January 2nd of this year after 63 years of marriage. So how can I expect him to tackle these reunions and other events on his own. I know in the future, it will get a little easier. I miss her so much and these past few weeks of get-together's have been rough. She really was an amazing woman. I knew that she was always there for me no matter what. When no one else "got it", she did. Grandma always seemed to have the right words to make everything better. Grandma, why can't you still be here? I could really use your ear right now. I know she can still hear me and that she watches over me, but I miss her. I think this night is going to have to come to an end soon because I am emotionally spent. I thought by writing out this blog, maybe I would feel a little better - but instead I sit here in my own tears wondering where I am going and what I am doing!